be my own "decider"

Sometimes the most difficult thing in the world to do is to acknowledge the failure and mistake one made. Since doing so, one would have to admit the things that this person has been long denying. But then, one must ask him/herself, should he/she carry on the mistakes and hope that the mistakes will cure themselves at some unknown point, or just lie to him/herself about that fact forever?

I can bear the mistake and secretly hope that it will turn out to be the "right thing" one day, and wait until I am old and desperate, or I can face it right now and tell myself : this is not the right thing, I am wrong, I must get out of this, give up the false hope I hold because for the sake of God, I know what it really is, I know it in my heart, that this is not going to work, this is going to be a disaster, this is what I tried so hard, but failed to achieve and will never achieve because it is never supposed to be this way.

Life doesn't dwell in the past, in the hatred and grudge of what happened to us. Life starts right here right now beneath our feet, and in the future awaits us. In this future of ours, anything is possible, but the only way to have a good future, is to make the right choice, and right decision, no matter how hard it is.